Category: Home Life

I know I have a lot of spices in my kitchen but never realised exactly how many until now they are tidily put together. The result…I am amazed.

今年的聖誕, 雖是短短一段的假期, 但也是令我覺得灰心的時候. 對於琪兒的自私,冷漠和欺瞞行為感到非常的失望, 覺得自己這一路來對她的教育失敗得很徹底.  對我自己, 我也很失望..我對幾天前還在想的”愛的箴言” 失去了願意進一步履行的意念..

目前的心情? 幾近於 “哀莫大於心死”. 我知道這是很可悲的景況, 但是要求自己堅強樂觀也非易事, 衷心希望在容許自己的短期頹喪之後, 能夠雨過天青, 重新出發.

不知怎的, 突然想到大學修聖經時最喜歡的”愛的箴言”

愛是恆久忍耐，又有恩慈；愛是不嫉妒，愛是不自誇，不張狂，不作害羞的事，不求自己的益處，不輕易發怒，不計算人的惡，不喜歡不義，只喜歡真理； 凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐；愛是永不止息。

在2011年即將落幕的時刻, 不禁得自省到底做到了多少。唉! 想到這兒, 心裡真是慚愧不已.

Hand over date: Friday 6th May 2011.

Schoolbag in hand, she leaves home in the early morning
waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile
I watch her go with a surge of that well known sadness and and I have to sit down for a while
the feeling that I’m losing her forever
and without really entering her world
I’m glad whenever I can share her laughter
that funny little girl

Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
the feeling in it slipping through my fingers all the time
do I really see what’s in her mind
each time I think I’m close to knowing
she keeps on growing
slipping through my fingers all the time

Sleep in our eyes, her and me at the breakfast table
barely awake I let precious time go by
then when she’s gone, there’s that odd melancholy feeling
and a sense of guilt I can’t deny
what happened to the wonderful adventures
the places I had planned for us to go
well, some of that we did, but most we didn’t
and why, I just don’t know

Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
the feeling in it slipping through my fingers all the time
do I really see what’s in her mind
each time I think I’m close to knowing
she keeps on growing slipping through my fingers all the time
sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture
and save it from the funny tricks of time(slipping through my fingers)

Slipping through my fingers all the time

Schoolbag in hand, she leaves home in the early morning
waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile

這首歌真是把我的心情描述得淋漓盡致.

 

 

 

 

 

有些人說穿了就是自私. 自己想要達到的事情總是排第一, 只顧他自己的感覺, 不為其他人著想. 有時想想, 一輩子要和這樣的人活在一起, 實在是很煩, 或許我也該多自私一些,管他人的死活 – 以同樣的心態回待.

~~WOW, Imperial Leather~~